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- MOVEMENTS
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do-it-yourself deep
therapy
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- by
- David
Kozubei
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- As used here, the word
"movements" refers to a way of finding the
hidden mechanism by which traumatic events from
the past continue to make what one does and
thinks and feels detrimental to oneself and
others.
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- More importantly, through
movements, effects produced by the mechanism are
not only changed, the mechanism itself is
transformed back into what it once was, as in
the fairytale of the prince turned into a frog
and then back into a prince again.
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- By its nature, movements
can only be done by its user. It cannot be done
by someone to someone else. This fact has
widespread ramifications.
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- Movements is an
adaptation of one of the physical elements in
the complex last form of the deep therapy
practiced by Wilhelm Reich (see particularly a
relevant case history in his book: The Function
of the Orgasm). For movements to work, you don't
have to read or agree with the ideas in the
book, or the ones expressed here, some of which
are not the same. But it is only right that the
root of the method and theory used by me in
founding movements be acknowledged.
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- Many practices share
certain similarities with movements. They are
not the same in method or results.
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- Movements can be done by
itself or with some other practice.
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- Movements can be done
alone or with others.
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- Some ills can be cured
before death.
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- One starts doing
movements by letting the body make any movement
or movements it wants to. It knows exactly what
to do, and is always ready to do it. Those
finding this difficult to grasp, and this
difficulty getting in the way of their starting,
can begin by making an arbitrary movement, and
can then let their bodies move, which their
bodies will then do if allowed to. If the body
seems to not want to do anything, an arbitrary
movement or movements will do (the reason for
having done that particular arbitrary movement
rather than another will appear later on, in the
course of doing movements). The movements can be
large, small, or minute; related or apparently
unrelated; funny or serious; pleasurable or
painful or neither; tiring or energizing;
familiar or unfamiliar; slow or fast; beautiful
or ugly; meaningful or meaningless; boring or
exciting; repetitive or not; can be done while
standing, or sitting or lying down or moving
around; in one go or in several; and can seem
harmless or frightening to oneself or others
(but for obvious reasons, you should not do them
much in public places so that you won't be taken
for mad or dangerous, and taken
away).
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- It is impossible to
"pull" a muscle while doing movements (though
one may think or feel one is going to), it is so
natural and conformable a way of moving for
one's body. Nor will anyone go mad, though one
may think one is about to, nor will one
dangerously lose control, though one might
expect to. Nothing is experienced before one is
ready for it.
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- The movements do three
things again and again: find a group of tight
muscles, position them for pulling, and pull
them.
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- Doing movements uses
energy and releases energy.
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- Some people make sounds
while doing them.
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- One is never stuck
irremediably in a bad place, though it may take
a while to get out of. One just goes on moving,
and sooner or later one gets out of it. There is
no such thing as an unresolvable trauma. But
movements is not a cure-all.
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- Now for some theory.
Movements will work whether one believes the
theory or not. It is only necessary to do it for
it to work. The movements themselves will give
rise to theory, which the effects of the
movements will prove or disprove.
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- More theory. The
movements, which are not directed by the mind or
will, sooner or later begin to pull on muscles
which are directly or indirectly involved with a
trauma whose effects are still active. The
continuing effects of a trauma derive from the
permanent tightening of muscles responding to
the traumatic event, and the further tightening
of those muscles or other muscles, in response
to the effects of the first tightening, or the
next tightening, and so on; till the tightener
stops tightening in despair, or after finding a
more balanced and less uncomfortable, though
tighter state, than the tightened one
immediately before, though never finding the
better state that existed before the trauma
occurred.
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- Much of the tightening
results from what one wants and thinks, in
ignorance of how to undo the previous tightening
and the effects of the trauma, when the
trauma-causing danger is finally
over.
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- The tightened muscles
affect all other parts of the body. And also cut
down on, or cut out, the feelings of pain and
anxiety derived from the initiating event or
events. This also cuts down or cuts out feelings
of pleasure, and can make the search for
pleasure frantic, and pleasure unobtainable.
They also redirect energy and prevent it from
going into some areas.
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- Further, over a long
period of time, tight muscles shrink. And some
illnesses eventually result from the cumulative
effect of the disbalances, in energy and organs
and so on, resulting from the
tightening.
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- An important side-effect
of permanent tightening is the forgetting that
one has done it, and this forgetting happens
within twenty-four hours. So, often, one has
negative feelings and thoughts and even does
things as a result of the tightening which seem
to come from nowhere or be part of the
constellation of oneself over whose origin one
has no control, and which sometimes require
repression since their existence is so
pestilential, either by turning one's awareness
away from them or by repressing them by further
muscular tightening which in turn leads to more
problems.
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- What one thinks about and
the direction of one's thinking is affected,
since one can't think of what one is unaware
of.
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- When the release of the
tightening occurs, one remembers having the
original tightening-up and re-experiences the
trauma as feeling, and regains whatever was
lost.
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- Mere mental re-imagining
and physical re-enactment of what one believes
to have been a trauma does not release the
permanent tightening.
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- The relief, hope and
insights, and manifest improvements from
re-adjustment of the musculature (which changed
after the trauma-tightening to conform with the
trauma-tightened muscles) does not release the
primal tightening and however useful and
effective it may be, has not as deep an effect
as the release of the primal
tightening.
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- The fear that an approach
to the trauma can arouse is controllable in
doing movements, since one always has the power
to start and stop the doing of them.
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- People remember so little
of the beginning of their lives because of the
trauma-induced tightening that occurred then,
especially in their first four years, and,
within that, especially in their first year. It
is possible by means of movements to remember
and re-experience traumas that occurred in the
womb.
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- How much time should be
spent doing movements is a question often asked
by those about to begin doing movements.
Obviously, a minute a day is not going to get
one far. A minimum of fifteen minutes a day, for
starters, not necessarily every day, is better.
The maximum (which can be counted in daily
hours) is whatever one can stand. The more you
do, the quicker you're done. However, it would
seem that the movements themselves will set an
everchanging schedule.
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- The pulling that occurs
during movements frequently tightens muscles
(before they give way), and the feelings or lack
of feeling that result from that are frequently
unpleasant. This tends to slow down or stop one
from doing movements. However, it is necessary
to go on doing them in order to finally release
them. If it were not for these negative feelings
and their corresponding thoughts, no one would
have any traumatic effects. We would all romp
our way through them back to square one in no
time at all.
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- Release of the
permanently tight muscles while moving is felt
in three ways: as a snapping, or a gooey
stretching, or a crunching, at different times,
and may occur a number of times before the final
trauma-related release since not all the muscles
involved are released at the same time. Some
good effects may occur before release of course,
because of the freeing-up of energy, organ
stimulation, realignment of muscles, and so on.
Even the bad effects (always temporary) of the
movements will tell you the movements are having
an effect.
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- The original tightenings
suppress not only the memory of the tightening
but suppress the inner feeling of the tightened
muscles in a way that is not the same as the
lack of feeling one gets from an anesthetic or
from ordinary numbness. One is not aware that
the existence of the tightened muscles is no
longer felt. This, coupled with the loss of the
memory of the tightening, cuts out all
possibility of becoming aware of the cause of
the (more or less) known effects of the
tightening by searching mentally or by means of
feeling for it, from inside oneself. At the same
time, all the usual means -- mental, emotional,
physical, and energetic -- for alleviating
symptoms, while worthwhile when they do that
(and sometimes they do so more quickly than
doing movements does) do not, ever, release the
musculature that is permanently tight, though
they sometimes beneficially affect the body, by
releasing the pseudo permanently tight muscles
that have adapted to the muscles that are really
permanently tight, or by providing a usually
temporary better alignment of musculature and
energy. A healthy musculature can tighten and
loosen as needed.
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- Examples of early
traumas. A baby needs physical contact
energetically with its mother. If it doesn't get
enough of it, it will tighten up in some way. If
not breast fed, it will tighten up in some way.
Primal needs that are not met lead to traumas.
And generally the fear and expectation of the
unbearable repetition of an already experienced
pain, in childhood, causes tightening as a way
of dealing with the pain and constant fear. This
is sometimes compounded by the child's
additional muscular tightening in response to
the parents' persistent suppression of the to
them unbearable crying of the protesting and
miserable child.
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- Because what occurs in
the course of doing movements is real change,
one's beliefs are sooner or later destroyed, all
the pride and humility, and the acceptances and
deplorings of one's vices and virtues, as well
as the virtues and vices themselves. However,
most of them are eventually reconstituted in a
different and preferable way.
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- Because traumas result in
the cutting out of aspects of our humanity, in
resolving them one "becomes" other people (which
is not the same as "feeling for" them or "being
possessed" or "feeling invaded") and regains
one's heritage, the heritage of being fully
human.
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- And apart from the
unpleasant experiences that occur or reoccur in
doing movements, there are innumerable insights,
so many eventually, that they become
comparatively routine and only of passing
interest, as anything one has a surfeit of does,
and because what they're about, if they are
about oneself, changes. Also, one encounters
extraordinary pleasures on the way, some of
which cannot be comprehended beforehand. May you
have them too.
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Copyright David Kozubei
1998
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- The above is a revised
version of an article of the same name published
in London 1964
- NYP call number: *MGV
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- For more of David
Kozubei's writings go to www.dkozubei.com
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